An apology

Hey all, if you are reading this, I am receiving mental health treatment. I chose to voluntarily admit myself due to all of the recent drama that’s been going on. I’m going to just cut to the chase here; I fucked up. Big time, and I don’t expect anyone to forgive me. Throughout the past few years I have been managing life online all by myself with minimal support or supervision. This has unfortunately led to some moments that I now later regret.

I will not make any excuses for myself, I know I fucked up. I’m writing this in the hopes of moving past this and trying to heal.

In recent months. Gore addiction has been taking over my life. I don’t get any pleasure from it, but rather it fucks with my head in a way that stops me from acting on violent thoughts against myself or others. Unfortunately this had led to me sending such content to people who did not ask for it. I want to preface this by saying in no way did the content involve any harm done to minors, but I unfortunately sent this in public channels where people could see them.

I have also had a past with using slurs and I now realise how wrong that is, when I’m upset I say the worst possible thing that comes to mind to get a reaction from people. This has resulted in me saying unclaimable slurs to people. This does not reflect my views on certain communities and I’m working on myself to be a better person and ally to minority groups.

I have also been responsible for the doxxing of several people. Whom I won’t name for their privacy. However I have not been sending people or things to these individuals’ homes, but rather just threatening them instead.

I have no excuses but rather would wish to try and explain what I may have been thinking at the time of the incidents. I am trying my best to be a better person and learn from my mistakes. Which is why I chose to voluntarily seek further mental health treatment.

I am trying my best to right my wrongs and learn from this experience. I’m deeply sorry to everyone I may have harmed during these incidents, and I wish for all of you to have a smooth healing journey.